They say the pain goes away. But when? The worry and lack of trust has me consumed. I open up and let myself be vulnerable and get hurt. Torn down and ripped apart. I don’t know why I’m to much I just want to care for someone. Give the my all and love them like I wish I could have been for ever. The times I came close I was disappointed and ashamed of the love I gave. Regret shouldn’t be apart of love. Being worried your to much or that someone may just stop should never be the focus. What is it like to have someone love you? Love you for you? Check you when you need it and lift you at those time you can’t. Someone that lets you love them and loves you back, what’s that like? Someday I’ll know!